Tuesday, August 10, 2010
That is how I am feeling as of late blah blah blah. I just dont give a crap about anything, now dont get me wrong the kids are still being loved on, A LOT but life itself is just taking a back seat. My throat hurts went to the dr and there is no reason why it hurts. That annoys me I dont hardly ever go to the dr and for me to go there must be something going on but according to the dr nope nothing nada. Basically was told if it still hurts by Friday to come back in yeah ok cause I have so much free time on my hands. This week is the last week of camp and school for the girls. I am dreading the last 2 weeks of summer with them all home, the constant I am bored whining, where are we going? whining..... can I just stick some earplugs in and ignore them? I guess I am off to do some food shopping now I dont wanna go I just want to sit on my butt and do nothing but I dont get that choice in life.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
No no not the sex talk, the Autism talk.....I know I know Brianna is 9 and I should have talked to her a long time ago about it but you know how these things go. She knows she is different, she gets that and I thought if I stuck a label on it that it might totally freak her out. But I don't think it did, though she did sit down next to me a minute ago and say "darn I am sensitive" (this is her and her sisters way of talking of people who are "different"). She skipped camp today so we went out to Ihop for breakfast, I of course got the chocolate chip pancakes, hash browns & sausage, while my little quirky girl got chicken strips and fries, because ya know they make the best fries according to Bri and well she should know it is basically all the kid eats. So we got to talking about her upcoming appointment with Dr. Roth (my savior) and I asked her if she knew why she goes and sees Dr. Roth, so that got the ball rolling. We talked about her sensory issues and how her socks have to be on just right and how she has to wear "soft" pants and how smells can do her in and how this all went together with Autism. Thankfully our neighbor is also autistic (well not thankfully I wish nothing more then for our kids to all be "normal)so I got to use him as an example as an extreme case of Autism, then we threw Kyleigh in the mix of a less severe case of Autism but definitely more severe then Brianna, and then there are kids like Brianna who have some issues that make life more difficult for them but we work together to get through them, because we are a team, we are family and that is what families do for each other. I think she got it, I am not sure how she actually feels about it all, heck I am not sure how I feel about it all. I sometimes wish I were one of those people who can skate along life with nothing bad ever happening to them, wish I still had my parents here with me, all my children, no issues, no worries. But I guess then I would not appreciate the good that happens as much as I do. Why does life have to be so darn difficult sometimes?